Thursday, June 21, 2012

Why you should read Dorian Gray, but not take up absinthe.

Over my Spring Break this year, Will and I took a trip to New Orleans. I had read about a little bookstore off Jackson Square called Faulkner House Books, so we decided to check it out. Faulkner House is on a tiny cobbled street called Pirate’s Alley, which is tremendously cool.


 It is also the former home of William Faulkner, who rented it from a jewelry maker during the twenties. This is also tremendously cool. The entire store is about the size of my dining room, and, similarly, most of it is occupied by a large table filled with books. The room has charming tile floors, high ceilings with beautiful moldings, and enormous floor to ceiling windows. The entire effect makes seem like it must have been terribly wonderful to live in poverty as a writer 80 years ago. Particularly in New Orleans, with an absinthe bar right next door. Please do not disabuse me of my romantic notions of writerly poverty.

it looks just like this, right?

Because the store is tiny, you can browse their stock in no time flat, but of course, as with any carefully curated store, closer inspection is rewarded. They have a large section on New Orleans history and New Orleans cooking, and a nice collection of first editions by southern writers. Of course, a very special case is reserved for all the Faulkner.

Although I was tempted by an enormous, illuminated version of The Canterbury Tales, I settled for a beautiful large-format edition of Oscar Wilde’s The Picture of Dorian Gray. The text of the story is accompanied by extensive marginal annotations and beautiful full-color illustrations of everything from examples of art referenced in the story to places frequented by Wilde in London.

Parenthetically, I’d like to note that this sort of thing would be impossible with an e-Reader. That is all.

I think many, if not most people, are familiar with the story of Dorian Gray. A society portrait painter in Victorian London paints his finest work – a luminous portrait of his young friend Dorian Gray. Dorian wishes aloud that he could always remain as youthful and innocent as the image in the portrait, and thus, without realizing it, makes a pact with SATAN. From that point on, all of his evil thoughts and unspeakable misdeeds are reflected in the painting, thus causing it to grow hideous and evil-looking while the actual Dorian remains as dewy and fresh as honeysuckle.



What prompted the book to be censored and Oscar Wilde to be prosecuted for gross indecency was the book’s implication that its protagonist and several of the other main characters were covertly engaging in GAY SEX. I’ll give you a minute to wipe all of the apple juice off of your computer screen after the enormous spit-take you just did. There you go. In fact, the painter Basil Hallward admits that he is initially hesitant to show the painting to Dorian precisely because “I have put into it all the extraordinary romance of which, of course, I have never dared to speak to him.” It was this sort of admission that would, in Victorian times, send monocles clattering into tea cups and old women lunging greedily for their smelling salts. To the Victorians, any painting that was born out of a forbidden homoerotic love would inevitably display the “unhealthy insanity” (to use the words of Wilde’s detractors) of both its author and subject. It’s all very Gothic and sinister, what with the painting secreted away in a dusty attic room for only Dorian to view.
One of the things that most struck me about the story of Oscar Wilde and the publication/persecution of Dorian Gray was the sadness of viewing Wilde’s history in hindsight. The adjective “Victorian” has become synonymous with oppressive morality for a reason. After Wilde was put on trial for gross indecency, he spent two years in a hard labor prison, and then retreated to Paris where he died alone, depressed and poor, all conditions he loathed. Although there are a few aspects of modernity I believe he would find repellent (e.g., the Pizza Hut P’Zone, the American penchant for wearing tear-away pants and Adidas slides in airports), I think that Wilde would have greatly enjoyed the present. To paraphrase Nicholas Frankel, the author of the general introduction, he would not have been forced to live the secret double life that spawned Dorian Gray, and he certainly would not have found himself and his ideals in conflict with a Puritanical society. He would possibly have been celebrated, according to Harold Bloom, as “an aesthetic superstar” not unlike Truman Capote or Andy Warhol. On a personal note, Oscar Wilde is probably Number One on the list of invitees to my zombie cocktail party, which will be entirely comprised of dead people who seem like they would be highly entertaining.  Other invitees include Truman Capote and Andy Warhol. And Waylon Jennings.


obviously.

If you’ve not read Dorian Gray, consider picking it up. In some ways the book is a story about the danger of confusing life and art. Not to make a speech or nothin’, but it should also make you think about the ways that art can have very real implications for people’s lives, the way this book did on Wilde’s. And. AND! It should make you deeply grateful that you don’t live in the 19th century. Because not only were most people painfully repressed and judgmental and rabidly homophobic, but they had to drink hideous drinks like vermouth with orange bitters, or absinthe, which tastes like aftershave. Anyone who tells you differently is kidding themselves. Plus, they all probably smelled terrible since they weren’t wearing any deodorant under all those clothes. That is, if the Mennonites I saw last week at Rock City are to be believed. But more on that later.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Viva la Blog!

Well hello again! After almost a ten-month hiatus, I am returning to the blog. With school out, my days are filled with thousands of unscheduled minutes just waiting to be seized. While my primary impulse is to lie horizontal on the couch for the next two and a half months eating cheese, I am reluctantly trying to find ways to use my time in a semi-productive manner.


As most of you probably know, the preceding year has brought the exciting and, of course, life-altering news that Will and I are expecting our first child in October. Like any expectant parents, we are riding an emotional roller coaster of joy, anticipation, confusion, love, bewilderment, nervousness, and occasional vomiting. We’ve tried to break the news to our dogs as gently as possible, but at this point they appear to be in a state of collective denial. As happy as this news is, it has regrettably forced us to cancel our plans to spend 2 months in Oxford this summer while I continue my Master’s Degree. This, to quote Wayne Campbell, is both bogus and sad.

Since I will not get to spend the summer pretending to be Hermione Granger, I will be living an equally gripping existence here in Benbrook, cooking various meat-related items, reading fictional and non-fictional works about British people, and fantasizing about red wine. And, of course, I’ll be attempting to mentally prepare myself for the idea that Will and I will soon be parents. This, I’ve discovered, is something that almost certainly takes nine months. If not longer.
As I transition from non-mom to mom, I find my interactions with other people’s babies becoming more natural and less full of painful silences. While Will is a stone-cold baby magnet, historically I haven’t ever really felt that uterus flutter of glee whenever a tiny human enters the room. I observed that most people’s babies were cute, objectively speaking, it’s just that I couldn’t really relate to them on a personal level. A typical interaction might go something like this:

Amanda: (stares at drink) Sooooo…

Baby: kdeoirjknbvieurh


Amanda: Did you read Christopher Hitchens’ latest essay for Slate?

Baby: (eats handful of dog hair off the floor)

Amanda: (pats baby on the head with primitive Frankenstein hand) So, no?

Baby: (drools and stares reflectively into middle distance). Lkheriuhkjsbvn ciuerihiuhernmnvkjheroiu

Amanda: (joins baby in eating handful of dog hair)

In short, despite my chosen career path, I am not maternal. While I believe that is changing as I grow more attached to the 1 pound critter swimming around in my stomach, I am resolved not to allow my brain to completely succumb to an endless loop of mom-thoughts after my child is born, never to return to its former state. Like the survivors living among the infected in 28 Days Later, it is crucial to remain ever-vigilant. 




Unlike 28 Days Later, it is possible to be both a mother and a human. I realize that any actual parents out there reading this may be laughing coldly at my ignorance, but my simple hope is that, even when I am a quivering pile of goo compulsively posting pictures of my adorable child on facebook, I will still be able to sustain the occasional adult interaction. As such, I plan to use this blog to 1) Exercise my brain’s writey-typey-thinky areas, and 2) serve as a permanent record that I once used these areas of my brain. Hopefully I’ll be posting stuff about food that I cook and food that I want to cook, books I read, and the exotic destination spots Will and I visit this summer, e.g., Chattanooga, TN and Archer City, TX.

Cheers!